For my babies who wait to come home:
"He will cover you with his feathers, and under His wings you will find refuge, his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart. You will not fear the terror of night, nor the arrow that flies by day... no harm will befall you, no disaster will come near your tent. For He will command His angels concerning you, to guard you in all your ways." (Psalm 91:4-5,10-11).
I am doing okay waiting today... waiting till Thursday to find out if THIS time Holt will say we can proceed.
I couldn't sleep well last night. Just kept thinking about things.
Things like (warning... you are now entering Chrissy's brain. It's somewhat like those thought-spider-web things they teach you to make to brainstorm an idea. I did not need help in that area.):
What if they say no? What if they say YES?
How long till we get our dossier together?
Isn't "dossier" French for "file"?
Why not just call it a file? Do we think "dossier" sounds better since it's French? Is it common knowledge that it's a French word?
What was that sound? I should not have watched "I Survived..." before bed when Paul is out of town. I know better. That was dumb. The doors are locked. We live in Mayberry. We have a giant dog. Oooohhhh... it was the dishwasher turning off. Stupid loud dishwasher. I didn't mean that... I love you, dishwasher.
I wonder what time it is in Ethiopia? So, if it's tomorrow already, by the time I get information from ET, it's already like two days old? Wait, that doesn't make sense. Wait, yes it does.
Did I turn off the outside light? I wonder if that possum is back. Would the light scare off the possum? Probably not. If *I* were a possum, I would not come here again.
It's really cold in the bed without Paul. I should get up and get socks. I hate sleeping with socks. Well, do I hate trying to sleep with cold feet more than I hate sleeping with socks on? That bathroom tile floor is REALLY cold... I am not getting up. I will eventually warm up under the covers. If I lay realllllly still... not working. I need an electric blanket. I wonder if they really start fires as often as people warn about that. Surely not. Can't be worse than thinking I can warm up my feet with the hairdryer under the sheets. Its probably people like me that make them put that warning on there about not using the hairdryer while you are sleeping. If I am willing to get up to do that, I might as well just put on socks.
Our poor Ethiopian kids are going to FREEEEEEEZE in the winters! I wonder how cold it gets in Ethiopia. I just know there won't be any snow there... because of that song. Great. Now that song is stuck in my head. "And there won't be snow in Africa this Christmas time..." Yeah, I dont know any other words to that song. Who sang that anyway? Sounds like Sting in my head. It could sound like anyone in MY head. I could do Ariel - the Little Mermaid singing that song in my head.
I am weird. I wonder if other people think like this? I am SO glad the home study lady doesn't do some kind of super high-tech thought-reading assessment. THAT would be weird. I wonder if they can do that? I think I might be able to break a machine that reads thoughts.
Ponderous. Great. Now THAT song is stuck in my head. "And then my shoes started to squeak... eeer-eeer-reeek" That was a stupid song. I wonder.........
I will spare you more thoughts. That's how I try to get to sleep at night. Some nights, I wish someone would just whack me on the head with something heavy! I did this when I was pregnant, too... so I guess my brain thinks I am expecting! Maybe in a way, I am!