There. I said it.

Life isn't fair.

I tell my kids this all the time.

Like practically every day.

Them:

"But!! That's NOT FAIR!!"

Me:

"Life isn't fair. Whoever told you it is... they lied to you."

I spoke with the Ethiopia program director this morning.

She confirmed what I had heard.

All of the June Visa dates are full.

30 appointments.

Full.

This means, 

IF we pass court on June 1..

the soonest we could travel is for the 

July 13th Visa Appointments.

This would put us on a plane around July 8th.

I am not holding my breath.

If this process has taught me ANYTHING it's that

you can't HOPE.

You can only wait.

If I find myself hoping to travel mid-July...

I will be crushed when those travel dates fill up and

we aren't on the list.

At this point, I just pray we get there before August.

The back-to-school rush will be upon us at that time 

and all 4 school aged kids are starting new schools

this year. Brand New. Like, they don't have a parking lot yet.

So there will be meetings, paperwork, and I will once again 

create an Excel Spreadsheet to organize the lists of required 

school supplies for 4 kids and their teachers. 

Then they will go to school and teachers will 

add to my list once I am done shopping. 

So we wait.

And then we wait some more.

And it stinks.

And I hate it.

I am tired of waiting.

I want to be able to DO something.

Something to take care of my three babies.

It's not fair.

And I should have known it wouldn't be.