Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Dear babies,

I have to tell you something.
As your mommy, I feel that you need to know that I am not waiting well right now.

I can wait forever for one of you to learn to tie your shoes.

I can wait in line at the store, at amusement parks, and I can even wait in traffic without losing my cool.
I did a pretty good job of waiting when there was something I could do - gathering more paperwork, interviews, or making phone calls.

Today, however, I am not waiting well.

It's been long enough.

I have loved you since I first saw your pictures in December!
I have planned and dreamed, fought and advocated, rushed and pushed...
and now I can't fight, advocate or push to get you here any faster.

I want you to know that if it was up to me I would be there already.

We would be home together already.

I would make your favorite breakfasts, teach you the joy of afternoon snacks like "ants on a log", fix your hair, take you for a walk to see the signs of spring, teach you to jump on the trampoline, push you on the swings, tuck you in at night, teach you to pray, and watch you as you sleep.

I would love to know how you wake up in the mornings!
Joshua, do you jump out of bed like Sam - ready for the day, smiling and happy?
Evelyn, do you need some time in the mornings to wake up? Like Mom?
Lillian, do you like to cuddle on the couch for a few minutes before thinking about breakfast?

I want to know little things.
I want to know if you are right or left handed.
I want to know if you like to color or blow bubbles or if the slimey bubble goo on your hands makes you unhappy.
I want to know if you like fuzzy blankets or silky things better.
I want to know if you still take naps and when and for how long.

I am not waiting well today, sweet babies.

Mommy loves you VERY much!
Daddy and I will be there as fast as they will let us come get you.


John 14:27  "Peace I leave you, my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid."


  1. Oh, the waiting is sooo hard. I've been there and can SO relate to how you feel right now. I promise that once you meet your children, all this just melts away. Not so helpful now, I know, but there is light at the end of the tunnel.

  2. Too sweet. we will get there!

  3. I'm not waiting well either today. I think just knowing how long our little journey has been...well...I'm just feeling selfish like it should hurry up at this point. I want her home so bad. Crying often. :)

  4. I wan to know what she smells like.


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